I’m becoming who I hate now. Used to think everything would work out but nothing ever works out for the kid who was always left out. Not to many friends left now, but I’m trying to think clear seems so sad but I never shed a tear. Everybody’s fake I’ve just never really cared. It’s hard to see the best when you live a nightmare. Everybody try’s but really everybody just tells lies. You can’t blame them you wore their disguise. She was just mad because I never really tried. But could you blame me? She tried to tame me, I told her don’t break your heart trying to change me. She used to call my phone to tell me that she loved me. One year later she was screaming how she hates me. It’s funny from best friends but now we can’t even talk. We start to think of things that we lost. Funny little inside jokes that we had. If I did it again I wouldn’t take it back. I would give you my heart, as long as you keep it. But never tell me that you wouldn’t need it. All of my secrets would stay in your heart. It’s funny over time how things fell apart. Listening to old songs that remind me of how we used to be. But I’m losing sleep I can’t hold it in. I called your phone and asked you “how have you been?”. She told me she was good waiting for school to begin. Then I felt my heart start to shatter again when she told me she met one of her friends. Now there together but this wasn’t planned and he makes her happy but I don’t understand? Like how did you get over me!? Do me this favor and never call me back again. Then I hung up and threw the phone out my hand. I’m running away, try to catch me if you can. I act like I’m okay when people ask “how have you been”?. I don’t need you! And you don’t need me! Delete my number and try not to reach me. I wish we were fine but that’s just how things go and I’ll think twice before getting in close. Maybe it was me? I meant to be alone. But then I see Christ the only one on the throne. He had to be alone just to take the crown. People said “I don’t know Him” when He came around. Looking back at it now I feel kinda silly… Because He took it all and He did just to heal me. Even though we break up it doesn’t really break us. I’ll never lose the love of the Savior that made us! Jesus!
- This song by Marty Mar of Social Club goes out to all the people in life who has ever felt heartbroken and just alone in life. The thing is in life we will feel pain and sadness but it wasn’t meant for us to take alone. You may feel alone but the truth is Jesus Christ came down from heaven to die on the cross for your sin and your pain. I just want to let everyone know this was exactly where I was in life. This song represents how I felt so down in life cus of a past relationship. But I had to give it God and say this is not my burden to bear. The Lord is waiting for you to give it all to Him. He loves you and will NEVER EVER forsake you. Never give up friends! Love you all.